HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Happy New Year to all my Beloved and New Found Friends in Blogville.

How have you all being? and so far what has been happening this new year?

As for me, The Lord is giving me much needed strength as i take each day at a time, face each challenge one at a time.



Anyway will update more often..

Merry Christmas!!!!!!

This is Wishing all of you a MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE. its good to know i belong to blogville even as inconsistent as i have been........ its been about a year since i started blogging and i want to believe i have made a few new friends. thank you all for your support, and care all through. love y'all lots.

Love.

How do you say you love someone but every now and again you are with someone else? Why do you want to have your cake and eat it?

An elder cousin told me, When you love someone you just have to love every part of the person including the good, bad and the ugly. Don't get jealous (easier said than done), and when you do, try to control your words and actions so you don't say things you would regret.

Let him do whatever makes him happy, because what you feel for him is not selfish. Don't ever disturb yourself about him cheating, just play your part exceptionally well by not getting even, jealous or angry. Instead give him more love. Don't only think of his weaknesses but think of all the beautiful times you both have spent together, the laughter with him rather than the pains.

Nobody owns another person. A womans' body is just food to men and we all know they like to eat varieties? (do we?). Enjoy life thinking of what you can do to make yourself and your loved ones happy and stop worrying (easier said than done).

Pretend as if you don't know what is going on or what he's doing, that way he stays with you as Men don't like women who gives them troubles. Instead love him more no matter what. Love is kind, selfless, faithful which doesn't make you a fool but smarter than him actually.

And she ends it by saying "You have to love without expecting nothing, that is the only way you get everything".

do we agree with this?

Question!

hello everybody, its been quite a while, well what can i say really? only that i am LOOKING UNTO GOD for answers cos He's the only one who can give them.

please i'd like all your Honest opinion about this question i want to ask, and if you can expantiate i'd trully appreciate it.


Question.

if as a child you have always had a family friend who is a pastor, to whom you have always run to for help (prayer points & prayers in general) who normally just prays for the family, who also calls when he sees things to warn you about them.

you have been having issues with your man, and when your pastor family friend asks you........You say well we r having issues or going through a bad time and he tells you don't worry, we'll pray about it, or read this prayer point or fast and pray for so so so days.

and then one day in a blind fit of rage, you send the the name of a girl you suspect he has something to do with, to the pastor, and then almost immediately you have a change of heart because it doesn't seem right, and you call him (the pastor) back , apologising for the text sent and tell him to disregard it and let nature take its course, and you promptly forget all about that and continue with life only for you guy to go through your phone one day and see the text you sent to the pastor that faithful day. Now, obviously on reading the text his mind goes into OVERDRIVE and now he wants ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU COS HE THINKS YOU ARE DIABOLICAL?

the question now is, are his anger and accusations justified?


i don't know if i explained all this very well but i believe i gave as much details as i could. lets not be judges here people but give our honest opinions.


thank you all.

the journey forward.

it isnt going to be easy, even i know dat.i pray that God will give me the strenght to see this thru.....

it hurts.......

well so am back on my own again, not happy about it but waht can i do? i don't think i was cut out for relationships becos it never works out in my favour istead it takes too much out of me.its hurting badly,i ve cied and cried and cried,didnt know i could cry so much?????? is it worth it?

my self esteem is so low, i don't even know where to start from.i feel dejected. actually toying with the idea of going to the other side and have even been prepositioned but how am i sure it wont be worse? and to think that i have a lot of love to give......all i want is to be taken care of,to be needed,appreciated, to be loved with a lot of patience becos i know i need to be handled with care? is dat too much to ask for? sure i'll have my flaws and make some silly mistakes but that doesnt mean i shuld be given up on and be left as "NO HOPE". hmmmmmm some people will say i shuld move on, and its not like i dont kow but its how?


evrytime the phone rings i expect it to be his call, evrytime a dark car goes by,i expect it to be his. i see sometin n i think of him, i want to do something and i can hear what he'll say.an sms comes in n i dash for it expecting it to be from him. m horny n i just want him,him and noone else. i feel very low wit myself and i want to be cuddled by Him.


sure i made a mistake but shuld i be given up on? it hurts sooo bad.u'd have thot that after all the crying i have done i'd stop by now but alas, dats not the case. it hurts so bad.how do i start afresh? where do i start from? who do i tell all my secets to? cant imagine some else touching me rite now. how do you win back a love u once had and have lost? especially if the person is fast building a wall u dont think u can penetrate?


whe i started blogging,i didnt think all my posts wil be this sad,but was going thru them today n its all so SAD. when was the last time i really let go and fun with someone i love. wat is this thing called LOVE anyway? i do so love him,with all his flaws,hes niceness, his love. EVERYTHING.
it hurts so bad.

i wish.

I wish.



I wish my dad didn't have to die and leave me all alone in this world.

I wish my good friend didn't have to die on me.

I wish i am able to tell people close to me how i really feel.

I wish i am able to express my thots clearly into words.

I wish i am able to trust people more, but how do i know who is who?

I wish i had more girlfriends, but then again do i really want them?

I wish my mom really noticed how i feel about certain things and people.

I wish i wasn't so insecure.

I wish i wasn't so emotionally unstable.

I wish i had those instincts that warn you when things aren't going well.

I wish i could have trusted my instincts more.

I wish i wasn't so stuborn atimes.

I wish i was alot stronger.

I wish i had alot of faith in my own abilities.

I wish i have the drive to go on.

I wish i had someone to talk to, to really confide in.

I wish i were closer to God.

I wish love didn't have to hurt so much.

I wish i had realised that he was the real thing when he walked pass me.

I wish i had put 100% into the relationship.

I wish i hadn't cheated on him.

I wish he could have forgiven me.

I wish he could have given me a chance to earn his love & trust again.

I wish that he didn't have to leave me.

I wish i have the strenght to carry on.

I wish he understood me better.

I wish he was willing to give me a last chance to prove myself.

I wish life was a bit easier.

I wish i didn't feel so lonely.

I wish it wasn't too late.

But it looks liks it is..........



i wish..